”For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good.
For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.”
Romans 7:15-16, 18-25 NKJV
Why do I do the things I don’t want to do? This question has been asked for thousands of years. You aren’t the first one to ask it. And you aren’t the first one to struggle through it.
But every time you wake up, you get another chance. And the beauty of our God is that His mercy is unending. While we tire of making the same mistakes over and over again and it’s difficult for us to forgive our loved ones time and time again, God’s patience is not like ours. Scripture says God’s patience is immense. Not just “patient,” or even “large patience” but immense. His mercies are new every morning.
What a reason to praise God. The eternal, immortal, invisible and only God.
“This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief. However, for this reason I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might show all longsuffering, as a pattern to those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, to God who alone is wise, be honor and glory forever and ever. Amen.”
I Timothy 1:15-17 NKJV
Prayer: God thank You for Your patience with me. Help me to grow and model my patience towards others after Your patience for me.